In my thoughts...

Tonight marks the beginning of a "new beginning". I feel my heart in bits and pieces after a heavy bang. I thought it was easy to walk on by but....*cries in pain*
I wonder if I will ever get it right? Heart ache, pain, a heavy heart...all these I bear, all these I fight with.
I just want to heal. Please I am sorry for the out pour of my current situation, I used to be stronger than this, but I guess nature took a hold on me.
Arrrrrgh*
I need me some light to shine on me again.
I miss me
I miss my shine
I miss my self happiness
My body is weak and pale
I have lost some weight
My eyes are so heavy and red.
Whoever said this was easy??? I forgive you for ever making me think it was.

Dear Diary II

Dear diary,
I wish I can reset my life
I wish love finds me
I wish I can someday love someone without holding back
I wish for a lot of things
With a heavy heart I write this dear diary,
I want to heal
I want to heal quick so i can pick up the pieces
God give me a sign that you still love me

Dear Diary

Dear diary,
I feel Regrets
The tears I have let out in the past few weeks have been on a different level.
I refuse to be a failure
I refuse to accept I am totally bad and always wrong
I am human, I make mistakes
I hope I find someone who would understand me and will be willing to grow with me, my flaws shouldn't be a reason to judge or abandon me
My heart is so heavy
This phase is here again
I will go through this
If love doesn't find me, then.....